Please refer to this blog in context of my previous post, ‘LOA started with frustrations and fears for me, stafe 1’, whereby I left my readers with the thought of finding oneself in the universe that exists inside us all; and that the search is imperative before even thinking of manifesting any desire. Further to that, let me elaborate what I meant by ‘finding yourself within’. We spend a lot of our time in thinking about people who only have a guest appearance in our drama of life, doing far too much that others expect us to do and saying things that we don’t really mean but we say to please others. In short, we waste a lot of our lives on others and deprive ourselves the prime attention that we deserve. Spending hours in self grooming for a beholder’s acceptance, sweating out to win the best employee’s badge, feeling the never-ending guilt to be the best parent, and of course striving to win all the other races in life- all this is motivated by our eagerness to impress others. So how does anyone decide what to desire and manifest to better own life, while having such an outward mindset? Simple- transfer into an inward-being by getting in touch with self in order to zero in on what your heart really wishes for. After going through the initial frenzy of wishing and hoping an instant manifestation, I too soon realised that it was mandatory to first understand my inner self before even begin to understand what I actually desire and how to go about manifesting it. Here’s how I did it : I prepped by pledging that I would only focus on the truth about myself and my life without allowing any biased wishful influences to distort the reality I seek. I sat down in a quiet and comfortable place; then simply closed my eyes and my conscious-self began with a question, ‘ How will I describe my life so far?’ The roller-coaster of life ran like a movie in my mind, but only in a flash; and the instant feeling my heart released indicated that life overall has been a blend of some good and some bad. True, but isn’t that a generic normality of human life? True again- life is like a zebra crossing, painted with parallel black and white stripes. Now, I was getting a hang of this private chat with my inner self – believe me, it’s just like talking with your best friend. Yes, as simple as that….no complicated mantras or rituals to connect with yourself. It can be described as soul- searching, introspection or self- analysis. We all practise these mental exercises on daily basis but at a very elementary level of consciousness. Remove all partial defensive mechanism which we apply to justify ourselves or in becoming a victim, most of our life. Imagine you are having an honest phone conversation; and the trick is in letting this conversation flow without feeling that you are talking for the person on the other side too, a bit like solitary game of chess. If the response seem auto instant, and at times it makes you uncomfortable to accept what you are hearing from within, then congratulate yourself as your sub-conscious is in touch with you! But if you feel that the reply is somewhat exerted and you needed to think consciously about what should be the answer- then you are not quite connected yet. Try again and don’t give up. Also, don’t expect an alien voice from within- well, that’ll be proper spooky! No, the whole chat will be as quiet as our thoughts and feelings, yet communicating loud and clear. The evidence is in feeling it and knowing that what you’ve just realised is true and nothing but the whole truth. Next, it was time to analyse the worthiness of my life created by God and what I really yearned more of to enhance that life further. Some part of the self-realisation was encouraging yet a lot was an eye opener for me. For example, I recognised that while I was chasing the ‘next more’ part of life, I was also ignoring all that I already had ! This touched a nerve. What are the blessings that I had forgotten to count then? Well, I was alive, to begin with, and living amongst my beloved family, I was educated, I got promotions in my career, I had my own roof over my head, I was in not-so-bad a state of health, etc. etc. As the number of blessings augmented in my mind, I was beginning to feel happier, relieved and even grateful in my heart. Just then, a smiling whisper slipped my mouth- ‘Thank you God’. I felt I had finger on the pulse of my feelings, hiding in the dungeon of my sub-conscious, for god knows how long. But now the dust was wiped and my thoughts were clearer. I also became aware of many follies in my existing thought pattern which motivated me to clear all clutter of preconceived notions about life. I went out for curry in our local restaurant with my family, something I had done dozens of times before, but for some reason I enjoyed the experience many folds more that particular evening. The launch pad for enhancing my life further was hereby set up. Gratitude to the Nirankar. In the forthcoming blogs my aim is to share each of the seven stages that I’ve discovered while practising the Law to manifest successfully. I’ll be discussing about the concept of desire in my next post. Objective comments from my readers are always welcome. Happy rendezvous with self. Till next week. Message: Sit your body down, calm your mind and let your conscious speak. What will speak back is your sub-conscious, also called the soul by many.