It started with trying, then trying a bit more, only to get frustrated as NOTHING was happening- I mean, I felt nothing and I saw nothing during the ritual of daily meditation, despite following instructions of every LOA pundit that I had read or listened to. Not their fault, it was me – I was not being receptive, despite my best efforts. May be I was trying too hard and not enjoying the process. So, one day, I decided to venture into something , which resonated with me.
So far, I was desperately seeking to connect with the Universe, to feel aligned with it’s frequency. But why? So that I could achieve a state of mind appropriate to present my desire to the Omnipotent, for fulfilment. I went through stages to reach at this level.
I closed my eyes and started meditation with breathing exercises, but with a slight variation from earlier practice- While inhaling, I would invoke a feeling of ‘taking in ‘ the belief in the universe’, ‘taking in all the love’, ‘taking in all the peace’, and so on; and while exhaling, I practised feeling ‘out with the doubts’, ‘out with the hatred’, ‘out with distractions’, and so forth.
Once I had grounded myself, I proceeded by thanking the Almighty and focused into the quiet and tranquil stillness. I must admit that the most intense challenge was to calm my overzealous wandering mind. As anyone can imagine, I didn’t succeed in the very first attempt, nor even the second time. In fact after much perseverance, I could focus in to my inner emptiness, to the extent that I felt peaceful being one with the darkness behind the closed eyes – Just me and nothingness, except my breathing. It’s so serene.
Now it was time to step up to the next level. While meditating, I started asking myself- ‘So where am I with what I desire and how do I proceed from here?’ The next question was ‘Who will answer these questions?’ Then, it downed on me- I need to understand the concept of consciousness, which has a direct link with the universe. It meant comprehending my consciousness at 3 different levels-
- My conscious is the metaphysical state of mind that guides me through day to day thinking and functions of life generally. It also manages our wishful thinking. It was my conscious that first steered me towards LOA, by waking up the thought of ‘wanting more in life’ inside me.
- My sub-conscious guards me with what is actually right or wrong for me. Its also called the sixth sense or gut feeling. This is the level at which I will be convinced, without a doubt, what desire is best for me. Its frequency is always aligned with the Omnipresent. But if conscious is always conveying negativity, without listening to what sub-conscious has to say, then that’s what is picked by the Universe through our vibes.
- My un-conscious stores all my life experiences and related feelings. When a smell or a song or any reference takes you back in the past to a related experience, its under the influence of the unconscious. It has the power to send positive or negative vibrations to sub-conscious and conscious mind.
In other words, when conscious mind reacts to negative stimuli, but the wise man in the middle, our sub-conscious, is ignored, the un-conscious mind instigate the matching negative sad memories from the past records of life. The vibration of such a state attracts, involuntarily and in ignorance, a manifestation of more negativity from the universe,
Now that I realised I needed to address my inner self, I focused for each of these consciousness states to openly communicate with one another by working in harmony , for my ultimate benefit.
My conscious motivates me daily to meditate with all its prescriptive steps of finding a quiet place to sit, breathing, closing the eyes etc.
Once a state of peace is felt, that’s the spot where sub-conscious meets my conscious mind. At this stage sub-conscious would respond to all the questions of my conscious mind, with elucidation. To confirm that its the sub-conscious that has spoken, there has to be no influence of the conscious self. In other words, no wishful thinking without actual belief, but only gut feeling. Once, the conscious and the sub-conscious are working collaboratively, they would coach and guide the unconscious mind to sweep out the garbage of old hurtful, sad and regrettable memories, so that I am left in a happy and positive state of mind. Now, my inner being was brought together as one entity with all the three separate levels of consciousness becoming ‘ONE Conscious’ within myself.
With daily practice, it soon started working with a flow. It was time to explore the next level.
At this stage I found myself at peace and felt absolutely free. There was a compulsive desire to connect with the Universe itself. So my conscious questioned,” How do I get in to the spiritual periphery ?”
My sub-conscious spoke to me, ‘ Through gratitude. Don’t deliberate too much on your desire itself or what you don’t have. Rather thank the supreme power for all the good factors in your life, starting with LIFE itself.’ Message was loud and clear. So I started thanking my Maker for my life, for the lives of my dear ones, for the roof over my head, for the food and water I am blessed with… and I actually found that I have a lot to be grateful about. My life was far better than I thought. Yes, I still desired more and I deserve it, but I was in a much happier place with what I currently possessed too. I found I had reached the mindset through my ‘one-consciousness’, that would prompt the right desire to make me feel abundant. I was ready to move forward.
I sat down for meditation, and after reaching the happy state (as per step 5), I thought about my current desire. I started through the sequence of questions ‘why’, ‘what’, ‘how’, etc. while analysing the desire. For example, I think this role is good for me > why is it good > I deserve a better job> what else>More money> Is it only the money > no, there are other perks >what will I do with better perks > improve my life style> how can I get the role> by showing my abilities>how>applying for it> > How will I feel if I actually get this job> thankful and happy. Everyone’s question sequence can be different, but must reach the same point of thankfulness and happiness in the end, I believe.
So this is how I found to determine what desire was right for me- by reaching the point of carefree joyfulness, not just in theory but actually feeling it in the veins.
Once, I have chosen the desire, there was a last push left for actually manifestation. Once I was at a stage of feeling complete exhilaration, I also felt transcended and no words can possibly describe that experience, except through undergoing it yourself.
This is when I would say to the universe, with humility and love, that I am ‘Ready To Receive’. Then leave the ‘How’ and the ‘When’ to the Omni power to work out for me. This is also the point when I let go, because I am confident that my request is heard and delivery is on its way. The best way, for me, to let go has been by diverting my thoughts to another exciting stimulus.
I am happy to share my experience and progression with fellow seekers. Happy manifestation.