Split-personality or just ME?


We all have a double personality, also called a split personality. When you are meditating, all the thoughts that enter your mind without conscious permission are thoughts of our other half who is born, living, and determined to die with us, unless we can either amalgamate the second ‘me’ into a unified ‘us’ or mute the stranger who always try to push the me out of me. ‘Why didn’t I do that? Something stopped me’. ‘I had a bad feeling about it but something seems to make me do it still!’ ‘Why did I not just shut up instead of blabbering on? I incriminated myself with my talkativeness.’ ‘I want to lose weight but just can’t say no to food despite my resistance’, etc., etc. I am sure many of you share this experience of regret or confusion and even shock at your own decisions, actions, and words. We give our behavior various excuses like lack of willpower, lack of confidence, lack of motivation, and lack of willingness, and so on. In fact, all these phrases fit. We all have this ingrown opposition which we mistake to be stronger than us because we give it too much time without much analysis or challenge. This is a silent voice in the head, yet a deafening influence on our mindset. This voice echoes at all 3 levels of our abstract existence- the conscious, the subconscious, and the unconscious mind. The reason that the intruder has comfortably scouted inside the sanctity of mind’s most intimate apartment is: We willingly appoint this stranger as our closest confidante and remain totally unaware of its overpowering expanse.
There is a flip side to this as well. ‘I was all set to travel, but something inside me said ‘don’t’. When I heard of the crash, I thanked my hunch’. We call such near-miss experiences, ‘gut feeling’ or ‘sixth sense’ or ‘intuition’. I call this voice my split personality. Meditation could help one to understand that this mysterious voice inside our mind is nothing but the echo of our own fears, doubts, and equally, our faith and our own convictions. This voice resides deep in the subconscious and seeps through into the unconscious; this is the reason we hear it as a remote echo from within.
The amygdala in the brain processes emotions in its right and left hemispheres. The right side is associated with negative emotions and the left side with positive emotions. Depending upon our genes, the environment in which we are born and brought up, as well as our natural preferences as we grow up decide which emotion is overpowering in our character. Emotion survives through expression, like positive emotions would express themselves as love, charity, and empathy. Same way, the expression of negative emotions is hatred, callousness, greed, and so on. We create, nurture and develop a voice inside our mind, which we might hesitate to say aloud, and over a period of time, it grows into a palpitating entity hidden within us. We give it all the names, but it is part of our own identity. Because the split-self does not work from the conscious platform we start giving it all the fancy mystical interpretations.
To consolidate this split- part of our own self, we need to connect with ourselves through meditation, reflect on actions as ‘our’ karmas and not give ourselves the excuse for bad karmas. Analyse whether your mind is more inclined towards negative thoughts or positive emotions. Adjust a healthy balance through conscious choices. Eventually, tilt the balance towards positive. We can do it if we persevere. When I refer to meditation, I don’t connotate religion or even yoga. It simply means introspection of self, unbiased and impartially. The other half of ourselves within ourselves is meant by nature to be a permanent feature of ‘ME’. Rear it proper and use it to your advantage.          

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  3. Cool 😊 thanks for sharing. That was really deep. I have often felt and experienced that there is a multitude of selves inside me. Partly this is because of my bipolar. But also because my personality keeps shifting over time since I was 20… which is weird. I tried to destroy my personality since I was 20 because I hated who I was. I’m 34 now. And I did succeed but not in the way I wanted to 😔

    But I don’t think that is what you are referring to by “split personality”. I think you are saying that this other personality is any feeling/thought/action that you do not will. Also sounds like you are saying that this can be a good thing as well as a bad thing which is really cool. For instance an unwilled behaviour can be eating really bad food and “being unable to stop” but an unwilled hunch like “Don’t go on that train” is really good because it saves your life. And this is tied into the amygdala having positive and negative branches? The positive parts of our subconscious and unconscious do incredible stuff for us?

    In other words the subconscious/unconscious is not all negative and full of horrible things? (Which is what Freud thought… Jung disagreed.)

    I do not know much about the law of attraction but I think it says that what is in our subconscious/unconscious gets radiated out into reality. In other words if you have a positive subconscious/unconscious then amazing things will happen to you and you will have an incredible life and maybe that you will have special powers.

    What makes me wonder about this is manias. I had about 7 manias before I was forced to take pills for bipolar. Thing about manias is you become incredibly positive. I interpret this as meaning that your subconscious/unconscious becomes incredibly positive. This would unlock the law of attraction effect I guess. Amazing things did happen to me all the time when I was manic and I did get some unusual powers. An example which is similar to your train hunch is that one time when I was manic I randomly went into the movie theatre to watch this movie then in the middle of the movie I had the thought “Leave now” so I left the theatre and wandered through the city, randomly got on this bus and then my sweetheart boarded the same bus a minute later. Incredibly unlikely coincidence. Bunch of other examples too. How do you interpret this?

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    1. First of all, thank you so much for sharing your personal life experiences. Only a person who has reached a stage of ‘nothing to hide’ can show that level of self-confidence. It is emancipating, even during not so great times. Well done 🙏👍
      With regard to my article, it is more to do with human philosophy than a medical condition. I am afraid, I am no expert in the field. The aim should be to connect with your core-self before understanding the language that the sub-conscious speaks. Otherwise, one risks control by strong instincts and urges, blinded by compelling thoughts to justify them. Only after reflection on what is conducive to an individual’s life can his/her desire be defined properly, and this is the point of connecting with your core-self. The language and the message by one’s subconscious become loud and clear from this onwards, and we can distinguish clearly between a rogue instinct and mature desire. This is the split I referred to in my article. Hope I could clarify. Thank you once again for taking the time to comment. Really appreciate it. 🙏🙏

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      1. You’re totally welcome 😊 Thank you. Sorry it took me so long to get back to you. My energy is waning out of my blog. Your reply is deep so I am going to steep in it before replying

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