Over a period of time, I’ve listened to and read many Law of Attraction coaches, motivators and speakers. I learnt more techniques and methods than the desires I aim to manifest. Being a beginner, I practised a lot of these methods- some worked but some just don’t do what it says on the tin for me. I am going to talk about a few techniques which didn’t work for me and before they totally frustrated me, I found my own method which worked and I thank Universe, the Nirankar, for showing me the right path. I also want to stress on the fact that the following findings are purely from my own experience, and might not resonate with all. The Two glass technique– Its based on using two clear glass tumblers and sticky labels – to write your current position and stick it to one of the glasses. Then write what you desire on the second label and stick to the second glass. Now fill the first glass with water, contemplate with real focus for about 2-3 minutes about why and what you don’t like in your current situation (reason to change circumstances), then pour out water in to the second glass with your desire written on the label. Focus again for 2-3 minutes on how would you feel/ what would you do etc with changed situation. In the end, drink this water, and based on the fact that water has memory and carries energy, it will be consumed with positive memory about your desire, now sent to your sub-conscious mind. My view: LOA is all about thinking and feeling positive all the time. Practise to create a positive mind set prior to desiring and obviously, manifesting. that’s why we meditate and ground our inner self first . So, spending 2-3 minutes concentrating and focusing on negative situation that you want to change is quite the contrary to the basis of LOA, especially with water in the glass which is memorising it all. Then pour it out and start creating positive vibes from your own creation of negative memory in the first glass is , frankly, pointless. No wonder, it didn’t work. But I was not disheartened. I pursued with what made sense to me – water has memory and most religions in the world practise ceremonies and rituals involving water, which is also considered to be sacred. We have rivers Urubamba, Jordan, Osun or Ganges, as few examples. For me, water is essential for life and I am creating a better life for myself. So I Tweaked the technique : I used only one glass, filled with water and labelled it with what I desired to manifest. I focused and prayed to the Omnipotent, the omni energy- The Universe. I felt happy while focusing on the prospect of manifesting my heartfelt desire. I desired to be able to leave my job at the time, which to me, was becoming a source of negativity due to the nature of my role. But while focusing and meditating with the glass of water, I didn’t, even once, thought of why I so wanted to leave the current job. My big question was financial sustainability if I was to leave. Then, Voluntary Redundancy came through at work, unexpectedly, and I was able to leave. Thank you Almighty. 555 Technique: This technique works on the principle of writing your desire 55 times for 5 days regularly without a gap. My view : Needless to say here- it did not work for me either. Then I also thought about a lot of those people who might not be able to read or write, due to various reasons like, medical reason. Also those who might be doing lots of overtime, dependents at home, etc etc can’t afford a lot of time required to write continuously at length without break , for the technique to work. So I Tweaked the Technique: I meditated, I focused and wrote my desire only once. Once again, I emptied my mind of all other thoughts except what I desired. This time I prayed for meeting up with a friend I had lost contact with due to long distance between us. I left the how and the when in the capable hands of the omnipresent. I received a phone call with in a week from my friend to tell me that she is visiting UK with her family and would like to meet up for a catch up. How wonderful! Thank you again Universe, my Akal Purakh. Thank Universe 21 times before sleeping Technique : Thank Universe 21 times before going to bed daily, so your dreams will be influenced with positive message and when you wake up, you would already be in a happy state of mind- ready to manifest. My View: Why limit or stretch thanking to 21 times ? Actually, why put any number to it at all? So I Tweaked the Technique: I always remember to thank the Universal energy, sometimes only once when I first wake up: ‘Thank you Universe for my life.’ Other times, I might thank Universe for all other blessings I have been bestowed, ‘Thank you for happy family life’, ‘Thank you for health’, and so on. I don’t count, but use my energy in feeling my gratitude, not stressing about numbers…was it the 5th thanks or 6th now…I thank sincerely and it makes me feel happy within and that’s what counts, at least for me. There are other techniques that I have either discarded completely, or as I’ve said here ‘tweaked’; however, the aim of my blog is not to challenge any technique/practice/ritual, but to share my experience with hundreds of my fellow manifesters, who might not yet be getting the success they are hoping from LOA, and are learning just like me. It’s nice to have an idea as a beginner and supportive guidance, no doubt. It’s like learning to ride a bicycle- you need the initial support from your parent who is an experienced rider, then you fall, then you pick yourself up and then you ride to where you’ve marked your destination. I feel that spiritualism is a very individual journey, and LOA is certainly part of this spiritual quest. I believe that its alright to listen to others with experience, however remember not to be afraid to invent your own path, if it resonates with your heart and mind. It’s all about how you feel inside while executing any action towards manifesting your desire. I thank the Universe for showing me my path, which is right for me. The only technique I need now is to meditate with undivided focus on my desire, and feeling happy and content while desiring
I have written about ‘pebbles’ or hurdles that we must over come before aligning with the universal vibration and start manifesting. This is a continuation of sharing how after going through the various stages of mental thoughts I started manifesting. Phase 1- This is a quest to ‘our’ ultimate bliss, but let’s not ignore that there will be doubts and questions along the path. Remember that a pigeon can close its eyes but the cat will still be there. So we need to learn to confront and fight the scepticism by accepting it’s presence, first of all. Otherwise, it will always be lurking there in the back in your mind, generating negative energy. That’s exactly what I did- made a fist and took my best punch at the first doubt; I smashed it. I challenged every doubt I had with an open debate within my inner mind. I have discussed the process in length in one of the previous blogs on how to meditate. I realised that most of these questions were rooted deep in my past, as I have been so accustomed to failing that success remained just a wish I desperately wanted to materialise. So my next target was to disjoin this involuntary attachment to my past and save my present from the painful memoirs. This led me to my next phase in the mission. Phase 2- To detach, I had to confront my festering anger, sadness and stress , that was beginning to take root in my sub-conscious. So I found an easier way to accomplish victory over this octopus of pessimism and gloom. I wrote to re-define those who had hurt me in a group post, ‘Hopeful Optimists’ on Facebook. I wrote, ‘Those who hurt and judge others are attention seekers with low self esteem. We must starve them of our emotions, for they have fed on our generosity for far too long. Forgive yourself for being weak in the past and strengthen your current vibrations. Forget the vermin of hate and lock them out in to oblivion. You don’t live in your past any more, for you have vacated that haunted house a long time ago. Start afresh right away, as you owe this to yourself. Raise your aura and manifest health and wealth, so you live happily ever after’. I received many ‘likes’ and like minded comments in response. This worked as a therapy. My own words became my teacher. This was, in fact a blessing of the almighty. Phase 3- Now, I was successfully moving away from my past, with each day and each meditation session, the distance seem to be gaining grounds. I started writing more and more positive quotes and articles, so that I continued to remember, ‘ Two men looked out through the prison bar; One saw the mud and the other saw the star’. I wanted to be the one who always saw the star; and every time I thought this , I felt the doors of the prison unlocking, to my freedom. Phase 4- I started affirming positivity consistently- the first thing after I woke up in the morning and the last thing before I went to bed. One of my affirmations consisted of these words, ‘ If a Night has a Day and a Desert has a Sea, Then my issues have at least one resolution’. I practically strated kicking at least one pebble from my path every day. One of the desires I had at this stage was to receive abundance of health, due a few problems diagnosed recently. I have discussed diagnosis of rosacea and its impact on me psychologically, in my blog before . I told my family one day that I refuse to accept that I have this condition. While my family was a bit confused, I knew exactly what I needed to do- ‘Believe’ I was healthy and my skin was glowing. This was a daily affirmation. So, after only a couple of days the symptoms calmed down and after further few months, I am being medically advised that it wasn’t rosacea but skin allergy due to a certain detergent! I knew its not a coincidence, and I HAVE MANIFESTED my desire. Thanks to the benevolent Universe. The reason I have shared my experience with fellow followers of LOA, is the fact that to feel down or negative is a human tendency but don’t beat yourself up if these thoughts prick at your focus from time to time , so long you remember to ask for the supreme guidance and manage these interruptions, you are on the right track. I confronted my foes by seeing them as weaklings and insects that suck on your blood. So I used my own inner strength as a repellent. I didn’t have to forgive them by putting my own self in the back seat. Instead, I forgave myself for allowing them around me for so long; it helped me to forget by discarding the rubbish that my life did not need. I changed my thought pattern to see glass half full, not half empty. After all, ‘Nothing is good or bad in this world, but thinking makes it so.’ I hope, as always, that hearing about a first hand experience of someone like me, is a greater motivation to pursue the right path, than just getting a repeat prescription of LOA techniques.
I would start with a positive note- It’s absolutely fine to have doubts, in a situation that is very close to your heart- for it’s passion and a strong feeling is in direct touch with your sub-conscious. Now this might not be a conventional thought amongst some LOA followers, but it is my experience that has proved it, for me. So, I say with conviction- It is natural and very human, thus, alright to have doubts, while following the Law. I’ll share my recent experience with you. I was very satisfied with my progress , as I was meditating regularly, getting connected to my innerself, feeling happy. Just then, I received diagnosis from my doctor that I suffered from skin condition called, Rosacea. For few weeks I constantly experienced burning and flushing of face skin, looking like a red chilli on fire. I couldn’t go out with family or friends, I couldn’t sleep properly, I couldn’t focus during meditation which led to stop meditating altogether, feeling sorry for my poor self. This threw me out of the tempo of my vibration. Over the next few days, I started contemplating questions, like, does LOA really work? why didn’t my meditations cast a shadow on what was coming? what did I do to deserve this? why did it have to happen to me? and the rebel mind took me on a naughty spree of doubting in other areas of life, some from another time zone in the past. One night the struggle inside woke me up and I realised my state of happiness that I had achieved through meditation practice, was evaporating in front of my eyes- unless, I did something about it and right away. So I did, what I should have, thanks to the guidance of the Universe. I sat down with my eyes closed and grounded my focus. It was MY time with my raw thoughts. I started asking myself one core question ( Ref: how questioning helps in my blog on ‘Meditation technique’)- Where am I with my belief now? Has this episode shaken or perhaps broken my belief? How am I going to proceed from here in my faith? I knew in the depths of my heart that I believed in the omni power- no doubts there at all; and this was a good starting point, but I needed moral support in my pursuit. I thought high and deep before starting to see the whole picture in the new light of realisation- Rosacea is not a life threatening condition- I have my other health faculties in tact, I can manage it and live a normal life. This was the beginning of positive light shining back again on my world. I felt more and more positive despite the diagnosis, and I held on to this positivity when meditating by being grateful for many blessings that enriched my life. One day when I was feeling particularly cheerful after a relaxing meditation session, I received a phone call from my friend who was in urgent need, so I hurried to get ready and forgot to apply my routine Rosiced cream and sun screen on to protect my ultra sensitive skin- it was one of the hot sunny days during the recent sizzling summer. Usually, it would mean that my face looked like a red tomato and on fire for hours or even days. I helped my friend with whatever was required of me and it was not before the evening that I realised I didn’t feel the usual sting on my face, nor was my face flushed despite all the sun soaking. I must have visited the mirror a ten times to confirm and each time I thanked the almighty for it was no less than a miracle- those who suffer from rosacea can appreciate the feeling.
I just smiled and said to the Universe in my heart, ‘ When I have your blessings, I don’t need to worry about any thing, as you are my saviour.’ I couldn’t offer enough gratitude to my maker, the Nirankar .
The next day, I moved around normally as I did before the diagnosis and I still have been fine since- its been two months now. I am leading a healthy and normal life; a gift from the Omni potent- thank you.
I might have rosacea medically, but the suffering due to this condition has been mitigated by holding on to my belief , by grace of the universe.
Difficulties are made to be overcome – so true. Doubts and questioning are, by no means, signs of becoming a non- believer or succumbing to a transitory weakness. We are allowed to be frail, at times, so long we ask for guidance from the universe. However, when we start wallowing in self pity and become a victim in our own eyes shutting out any possibility of a resolution – there is a great peril of attracting more situations to feel morose. This was my motivation to seek spiritual guidance against how I felt at that moment, rather than sink further in to a cathartic whirlpool.
I trust my belief has come out of the fire of test , feeling even stronger than before. Out of cactus has bloomed a flower of faith. Thank you Universe for your benevolence.
Where I am happy to share my experience with the fellow believers, I would also like to insist that I am not by any reference advocating anyone to skip taking their medication or ignoring any medical advice. We need to find our core within in our own individual way. But it’s good to know that we are not alone.
It started with trying, then trying a bit more, only to get frustrated as NOTHING was happening- I mean, I felt nothing and I saw nothing during the ritual of daily meditation, despite following instructions of every LOA pundit that I had read or listened to. Not their fault, it was me – I was not being receptive, despite my best efforts. May be I was trying too hard and not enjoying the process. So, one day, I decided to venture into something , which resonated with me.
So far, I was desperately seeking to connect with the Universe, to feel aligned with it’s frequency. But why? So that I could achieve a state of mind appropriate to present my desire to the Omnipotent, for fulfilment. I went through stages to reach at this level.
I closed my eyes and started meditation with breathing exercises, but with a slight variation from earlier practice- While inhaling, I would invoke a feeling of ‘taking in ‘ the belief in the universe’, ‘taking in all the love’, ‘taking in all the peace’, and so on; and while exhaling, I practised feeling ‘out with the doubts’, ‘out with the hatred’, ‘out with distractions’, and so forth.
Once I had grounded myself, I proceeded by thanking the Almighty and focused into the quiet and tranquil stillness. I must admit that the most intense challenge was to calm my overzealous wandering mind. As anyone can imagine, I didn’t succeed in the very first attempt, nor even the second time. In fact after much perseverance, I could focus in to my inner emptiness, to the extent that I felt peaceful being one with the darkness behind the closed eyes – Just me and nothingness, except my breathing. It’s so serene.
Now it was time to step up to the next level. While meditating, I started asking myself- ‘So where am I with what I desire and how do I proceed from here?’ The next question was ‘Who will answer these questions?’ Then, it downed on me- I need to understand the concept of consciousness, which has a direct link with the universe. It meant comprehending my consciousness at 3 different levels-
- My conscious is the metaphysical state of mind that guides me through day to day thinking and functions of life generally. It also manages our wishful thinking. It was my conscious that first steered me towards LOA, by waking up the thought of ‘wanting more in life’ inside me.
- My sub-conscious guards me with what is actually right or wrong for me. Its also called the sixth sense or gut feeling. This is the level at which I will be convinced, without a doubt, what desire is best for me. Its frequency is always aligned with the Omnipresent. But if conscious is always conveying negativity, without listening to what sub-conscious has to say, then that’s what is picked by the Universe through our vibes.
- My un-conscious stores all my life experiences and related feelings. When a smell or a song or any reference takes you back in the past to a related experience, its under the influence of the unconscious. It has the power to send positive or negative vibrations to sub-conscious and conscious mind.
In other words, when conscious mind reacts to negative stimuli, but the wise man in the middle, our sub-conscious, is ignored, the un-conscious mind instigate the matching negative sad memories from the past records of life. The vibration of such a state attracts, involuntarily and in ignorance, a manifestation of more negativity from the universe,
Now that I realised I needed to address my inner self, I focused for each of these consciousness states to openly communicate with one another by working in harmony , for my ultimate benefit.
My conscious motivates me daily to meditate with all its prescriptive steps of finding a quiet place to sit, breathing, closing the eyes etc.
Once a state of peace is felt, that’s the spot where sub-conscious meets my conscious mind. At this stage sub-conscious would respond to all the questions of my conscious mind, with elucidation. To confirm that its the sub-conscious that has spoken, there has to be no influence of the conscious self. In other words, no wishful thinking without actual belief, but only gut feeling. Once, the conscious and the sub-conscious are working collaboratively, they would coach and guide the unconscious mind to sweep out the garbage of old hurtful, sad and regrettable memories, so that I am left in a happy and positive state of mind. Now, my inner being was brought together as one entity with all the three separate levels of consciousness becoming ‘ONE Conscious’ within myself.
With daily practice, it soon started working with a flow. It was time to explore the next level.
At this stage I found myself at peace and felt absolutely free. There was a compulsive desire to connect with the Universe itself. So my conscious questioned,” How do I get in to the spiritual periphery ?”
My sub-conscious spoke to me, ‘ Through gratitude. Don’t deliberate too much on your desire itself or what you don’t have. Rather thank the supreme power for all the good factors in your life, starting with LIFE itself.’ Message was loud and clear. So I started thanking my Maker for my life, for the lives of my dear ones, for the roof over my head, for the food and water I am blessed with… and I actually found that I have a lot to be grateful about. My life was far better than I thought. Yes, I still desired more and I deserve it, but I was in a much happier place with what I currently possessed too. I found I had reached the mindset through my ‘one-consciousness’, that would prompt the right desire to make me feel abundant. I was ready to move forward.
I sat down for meditation, and after reaching the happy state (as per step 5), I thought about my current desire. I started through the sequence of questions ‘why’, ‘what’, ‘how’, etc. while analysing the desire. For example, I think this role is good for me > why is it good > I deserve a better job> what else>More money> Is it only the money > no, there are other perks >what will I do with better perks > improve my life style> how can I get the role> by showing my abilities>how>applying for it> > How will I feel if I actually get this job> thankful and happy. Everyone’s question sequence can be different, but must reach the same point of thankfulness and happiness in the end, I believe.
So this is how I found to determine what desire was right for me- by reaching the point of carefree joyfulness, not just in theory but actually feeling it in the veins.
Once, I have chosen the desire, there was a last push left for actually manifestation. Once I was at a stage of feeling complete exhilaration, I also felt transcended and no words can possibly describe that experience, except through undergoing it yourself.
This is when I would say to the universe, with humility and love, that I am ‘Ready To Receive’. Then leave the ‘How’ and the ‘When’ to the Omni power to work out for me. This is also the point when I let go, because I am confident that my request is heard and delivery is on its way. The best way, for me, to let go has been by diverting my thoughts to another exciting stimulus.
I am happy to share my experience and progression with fellow seekers. Happy manifestation.
I know ‘what’ to desire and ‘how’ to desire, so what now? I suppose I need a sign/a symbol from the Universe to affirm manifestation, I thought. Hence, I started with meditation, as usual , and connected with my desire, to really feel it in my veins – the sensation of goose pimples, the excitement of a racing heart, the feeling of an involuntary smile and a compulsive sense of excitement. (Reference: Meditation technique that worked for me).
Now, it was time for the next elevation- feel my manifestation itself. While connected to my inner self, my sub-conscious, I desired for a symbol from the Universe as a sign of blessing – a prologue to my hymn of manifestation. I wished for seeing a ‘rainbow’ !
I kept my eyes peeled in search for that multi-coloured band amongst the cloud, in the clear sky, on tele screen, in books I was reading; but I did not find the precious rainbow anywhere my imagination, my eyes or my ears could take me.
Once again, I invoked my sub-conscious and asked the question and it responded- Not getting an apparent sign, is also a SIGN. It means that as per the design of the Universe, its not yet the time to receive- as simple as that. I continued with my meditation to dig further in to the connotations of this response. Here it is- I needed to show my commitment to my desire further, by finding out the right frequency within, to align with the Omnipresent. I was satisfied with this, but deep down somewhere was still craving for a sign to bless this conversation with my sub-conscious.
The same afternoon, I went to the superstore for shopping, and suddenly there it was! The sign from the Universe, the blessing of the Almighty- A cake with a rainbow on top! I had been to this supermarket a thousand times, but had never ever seen this design on cake before. I came home and turned on the tele; news was on and guess what? It was weather forecast on the screen with a huge rainbow in the background! Just then postman delivered letters and amongst the pile was a promotional pamphlet on womens health, with rainbow on its cover!!! – I got my satisfaction, as also a clarification that the Universe was communicating with me all the time- when I couldn’t see the sign and when I did see the sign.
The Universe has left up to us to figure out the ‘WHAT’ , but the ‘HOW’ and the ‘WHEN’ is up to the universe to decide. So, you can do what I am practising- meditation, gratitude, affirmation, visualisation and then thank some more. You could have some other routine on your mind, so carry on with what satisfies your belief- but please remember, Universe will deliver when you are really ready to open that door to receive the package.
Its not always easy to find exactly ‘what’ you desire, once you do then there is the question of, ‘What action’ to take to manifest it. I have so many questions, but can’t decide which is the right answer. As a result, I find myself at a junction, every so often.
Once again, I desired to end this incertitude, and turn into right direction. I have learnt, through own experience, that it’s our conscious that gets confused, at times, to make a choice. Hence, I thought my conscious needs to meet up with the sub conscious first and literally discuss the whole enigma of, how to make the right choice of action to manifest my desire ( I’ve spoken about how to know its the right desire in previous blog).
I decided to meditate and literally speak with my sub-conscious. How did I know I spoke with my deeper self? Well, I felt it- it felt like a communication within. My sub- conscious answered, and said that I need to ‘feel’ each selection of choice in my mind. Now, some choices might make you feel like its a wishful thought, some might take you to the road of counting pros and cons; but there will be one that will absolutely resonate with you- no further questions. That’s when you need to open your eye and act to manifest your desire.
I believe, I am on the right track, so long I stop at the junction to reflect on what’s the right route, for me, before continuing my journey.
The Universe is aligned to our sub-conscious; so speak to your inner-self during meditation. If the sequence of question and answer flows uninterrupted and you feel the tingling in your veins, then you know you are connected with your sub-conscious mind; hence in alignment with the Universe. The action thus taken will yield good results. For example, if your question is which is the befitting job you should go for; then you need to balance your acumen with the role description, unbiased. Reflect and determine which job to apply for- you will feel excited about the prospects and will be successful. Another example could be – question about ‘when will my desire to get a bigger house’ be manifested. The answer would be found in ‘do you really believe in your desire?’ ‘what action is within your means to match this desire.’ Mind, this action could be right investment; or if you have no money but only a sincere desire, then meditation, gratitude and belief are your actions. Once you have engaged your sincerest efforts, leave the manifestation to arrive from the Universe.
However, if you feel its a forced and biased answer, then, its in fact, the influence of your conscious mind, and your sub-conscious has not spoken- you will not feel happy at heart either. If you still take this action, it will not manifest any results. For example, you are only enticed to a role due to the perks of the job, but no qualifications for it- this is the wrong choice.
I’ve tried this meditation technique in various cases in personal life, and subsequently have chosen the right action, as per what my sub conscious indicated and was thus blessed by the universe.
I thought I will share this progression with my fellow practitioners. Happy manifestation.
Dance for your self – your audience is within
Just to share what I thought today, during meditation- Yes, ‘thought’. In my experience, thoughts when felt, are the silent language of one’s sub-conscious, and that aligns me to the Universe, as per my belief. Then, I deduced- Meditation is all about tapping into the deepest lying thoughts within.
So, I focussed on what was knocking at the door of my conscious. I closed my eyes and slowly opened the door, with caution, not sure what might run at me, at this stage.
Here’s what decanted into my conscious being- A question-’ What action would manifest my desire?’ No answer followed out of the door, yet.
So, I continued to focus further, which carried me to the deeper inquisition within myself. I saw it lucid now – I had broken the vicious cycle of ritualistic belief to attain the freedom to connect with self (Reference to my first blog-‘Universe found me’) ; and thence, I ventured into meditating twice a day; with patterned focus before sleeping to influence my own dreams that night, maintaining a ledger of my wishes and manifestation, and the list goes on.
I trusted my sub conscious to lead me further on; and it was revealed- I am getting caught in another set of rules, which too is ritualistic in itself. So, where is my freedom? What am I not seeing or feeling yet? Then, supreme intuition spoke – I can even meditate with my eyes open by remembering the Omnipresence of the Omni Universe, anywhere and at any time. Alignment is not transitory, but perennial.
With this thought I opened my eyes, to board the ‘Future Express’ to manifestation.
Thank you Universe for yoking my conscious and sub conscious together, for now.
I have been a conscious observer of an ancient sentiment tune-in technique, which actually existed in human sub-conscious a long before the subject of psychology was ever invented and emotions became a philosophic science. Yes, I am referring to the art of catharsis.
Let me share, via this blog, how I would interpret catharsis, as per my experience.
The first step towards this elucidation is to answer – Why the practice of emotional cleansing ever resonated with me?
I found sad poetry with distressing lyrics so serene, reaching deep into my heart, tingling the chords of melancholic harmony. Tragedy became my favourite genre for movies and books. I felt better after spending all my inner gloom on outer stimuli. I felt redeemed, even though it was a provisional satisfaction, till the next dose of tenebrosity for an emotional fix.
We, as humans, are creatures of habit, but after a point, endeavour to break boundaries. So, this bubble of fleeting purgatory of feelings started to bust the day I remembered my parent’s advice- ‘Always value what you have, rather than count what you don’t’. This begot another question, ‘ why so many of us have this craving for gloom, while actually desiring abundance of happiness? ‘ It nudged me towards realising that I was not entirely comfortable with this induced dosage of sadness, when deep down, I actually yearned for joyousness in life. I arrived at the point of boredom or impasse with this recurring routine; and at that very spot started my very own reformation.
My frustration had a silver lining; I was motivated to jump out of a shallow pond in to a plenteous world. My first edification was to bust a few mythical beliefs, picked on the way, on perpetual roundabout my life was stuck on – turning eternally, but going nowhere .
I recognised the imperfection in my thought pattern and focus; I liked to be cathartic to glum stimuli, and this made me feel, mistakenly, purged and consequently, spiritual. However, it was never long lasting, and I was left with frustration of desiring permanent state of ecstasy. I have to admit, that sometimes I felt kindred with tearjerker subjects, so much so that it became part of my very make up as a person. I needed a personality change, or at least a focus replacement by taking the first exit from the roundabout of my life, stuck in the quicksand of counter-productive emotional discharge .
Where I found solace in moroseness, my preference has changed to comedy or light hearted movies, books and even friends. I feel the first shackle broken, yet, I have miles to run to achieve emotional emancipation. I admire the glimpse of positivity out of the window ajar, but there is a big door to be kicked open yet.
I re-analysed my parent’s advice and began to appreciate what I have, and even thanking almighty for life itself. What’s more, I am smiling more when I look at my self in the mirror- not mockingly, but for seeing a different personality in the same image. Its not always easy nor is it an emotional incontinence of constant laughter, but I am feeling more content within; while trying to refuse myself a daily shower in the saline water, to feel cleansed. I have realised that my routine audience with catharsis was, but, a short spurt of ‘feel better’, as programmed to think. My life was under the sway of melancholic tunes; but in reality, this behaviourism was stinting the growth of positivity within. I am currently working on manifesting abundance of happiness, by finding it in every nook and corner of this great life. Thank you Universe, I am in gratitude to you.
Let go – just temporarily
Patience, submission, acceptance, focus and diligently trying to let go, believing ‘as if’ its happening- only its not! Following a heavy dose of these blended health potions and relishing every sip of the incorporeal nectar, my spirit is still pining for materialisation of my first wish. My five senses are witness to this blank.
So, I wonder if I am questioning my belief? Again? I thought I had vanquished my past demons of questioning and then questioning more, with out getting enough answers to win my permanent devotion ( also as I described in my very first blog- Universe found me).
While I was disappearing slowly but surely in the quick sand of scepticism something within prompted me to calm down, put the questionnaire to the side and connect to my inner self. So, more meditation, more introspection has made me realise that while I have been desiring, I have focussed on the problem as much- with out even being quite aware of it.
Hence, here is my answer- I have desired, meditated and observed all the techniques that internet gurus have taught; however, I need to master letting go now. The best way to do this, I’ve analysed, would be, for me, to pick another scene from the tapestry of life.
May be, I will write about something else too. Short stories- fictional with cliff hanger and adding a bit of kick with spicy spook! After all, this is also true of the spiritual journey , till truth manifests itself. There! I’ve got my alternative focus to let go. Will soon let you know where I got on with fiction and reality. Take good care of yourselves till then.
I seek Universe and believe that I certainly am on the right path; however along this gritty track, I am also kicking a few pebbles out of my way. This post is about these pebbles, seeking a way that is straight and smooth.
After resounding instructions from the youtube, through headphones, and after collaborated practice of meditation, yoga, reflection, introspection, breathing techniques and focus, I have achieved- a positive mindset and belief. Result? I’ve learnt ‘how to desire.’
I was astonished that all those years when I was complaining and whining to the self-created image or entity of god for not bestowing the gifts upon me , as I deserved, I actually wasn’t even aware of what exactly did I desire! The simple sequence of a fulfilled life is- desire, then let the Universe know and receive it. Simple? Yes, in theory, but a few pebbles still remain in the way.
The above theory comes with a small print- a catch. Once you have figured out your desire, you believe in the omnipotent and feel ‘AS IF’ you’ve already received the gift! Now here’s a pebble- I am struggling with the notion of PRETENDING ‘as if’, when actually I haven’t received the desired gift. In my spiritual dictionary, Truth and Reality are synonyms. God is true, hence, real. So my desire is not received till it is actually fulfilled? Not as per the Law Of Attraction, though- ‘not’ pretending sends negative vibes through our sub-conscious to the universe, so we keep churning a state of deprivation.
Now, you see my dilemma! I have the right bunch of keys; but its only one right key that will open the door to my awaiting fulfilled desire. At least, the journey continues with a positive stride.
Till the next blog, take good care of yourselves and stay positive.